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P6 22 Apr 23

 5 April : Met up with Mary, BH and Suet. Felt a distance away from them. Not keen to join them for the art exhibition that commemorate the death of Jesus Christ. And not keen to know the truth of the empty tomb, which is the basis of Christian faith. Knew Mary was very saddened by my response, at the same time, i do not want to hide any true feeling from her. I really don't feel the love of God towards me anymore. Instead of feeling grateful to her for showing me the way to God, i felt pressured to be conformed to the Christian faith because i want to get accepted by my contemporary. I had this judgement towards BH who is so keen to get her mum to accept Jesus Christ as her personal God and saviour. Is it for her mother's good or for her image in front of her peers, that her mother accepted Christ, she had done her part as a daughter? By getting her mum to accept Christ, is she showing more filial piety than not getting her mum to accept Christ?   Christian faith had br...
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P5 9 Jan 23

 Entered into the 2nd week of school. Tutees are all settling down. Am busy with a series of medical appointments. Never expect my ear infection to cost me a non-working day. Finally understand the seriousness of ear infection. Glad things were not as bad as i thought. Will be more careful in future swim.  Mum is getting more and more withdrawn and do not want to participate in a lot of activities, only want to copy buddhist scripts. Just wondering how i am going to engage mum further.  Getting abit worried. Recording mum's progress and updating mei so that i don't forget.  Latest update about mum : She uses her finger to dig into her rectum to force out her stools. And i am monitoring her hygiene now. Not good. She doesn't wash the cloth that was used to wipe her bum.  Master bedroom smells all the time due to the cloth. So i did the regular washing.  Signed myself up for 4 days baking workshop. The cakes baked can be used to treat the colleagues and staff...
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P3 16 Nov 22

  Day started as early as 4.30 am. I am surprised I wake up early, to earlier nowadays. Have not been getting down to blog since 2015, a habit I thought is a good to have. Will kickstart my engine again starting today. Benefits of blogging is to pen down my journey, sort out my thoughts and clarify whatever I think needs sorting. Life has been quite smooth flowing for me. Not sure if it is due to the house fengshui or we treasure harmony in the house, no quarrels, a lot of jokes and teasing and just us. It is so nice to be just us. No tenants. Though there is a loss of room rentals, but it is well worth it, because my brother is back staying with us. This gives me some time for my personal things. Things that I need to change : 1.        Less tuitions 2.        More time with nature 3.        More time to exercise 4.        More time to meditate and ...
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P4 2 Jan 23

 Last day of free day before i start work on 3 Jan. I started first day of the year (1/1/2023) going for a morning walk with Aw. He has a normal routine of starting his new year by going for a morning walk at Lorong Halus. This year, with mum, i delayed him in terms of timing.  He was patient and tried to accommodate the needs of mum. Mum was not very settled in walking and after about 10 minutes, she wanted to go home. This was what i feared, many of my friends were "turned away" because of the unpredictability of mum.  I put mum first and told Aw to send us back.  1/1/2023 : Paid respect to dad. Prayed for family unity. Interesting enough, mum burped when ge and da shao boarded the car. It reminded me of the masseuse who burped on my behalf because i had alot of wind in my stomach. What did mum's burping signify?  Thought of joining ge for lunch after paying respect to dad. Mum wanted to come along. In the end, we did not eat together because mum cannot eat at...
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P2 27 Dec 22 (Healing Magic of Trees)

 Our mind carry our emotional stress, but our bodies do, too. According to the late neuropharmacologist, Candace Pert, "body is our subconscious mind. Our physical body can be changed bythe emotions we experience. Unprocessed emotions are literally lodged in our bodies, which can result in tension and disease. The physical body is always trying to release emotion. If we don't express those emotions, the energy becomes stuck in our joints, tissues and organs. A good way to let go of any residual stress or preoccupations you may be carrying with you, before entering the forest, is to shake your body. We may not be able to control all the stresses of our daily lives, but we can control how we respond to them.  Turn off Mobile Phone :  Many of us suffer from "screen apnea" or email apnea". We stop breathing or breathe shallowly when we look at screens. The aps that we download might be "free", but when we spend hours scrolling on social media, what we are ...
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P1 26 Dec 22 (Healing Magic of Trees)

 I re-read this book called The Healing Magic of Forest Bathing. Written by Julia Plevin, the book never fails to amaze me on more revelation of the magic of Forest Bathing. It is an inner journey. A journey between me and the forest. It was just magical. By the definition of Julia : Forest Bathing is the practice of intentionally connecting to Nature as a way to heal. Part mindfulness, part child's play. It is a portal into true understanding of yourself and the world around you. Forest bathing is an embodied love note to Mother Earth and an evidence-based intervention to combat the life-threatening diseases that are associated with modern life.  FOREST BATHING IS A WAY OF LIFE.  There are 3Rs for living on earth : Respect, reciprocity and relationship.  Forest Bathing is a journey. What happens during a forest bath is a magnified version of what's happening in your life. It becomes a mirror for what you experience. As you begins to see the beauty in all parts of n...
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