Daily Reflection

 5 April : Met up with Mary, BH and Suet. Felt a distance away from them. Not keen to join them for the art exhibition that commemorate the death of Jesus Christ. And not keen to know the truth of the empty tomb, which is the basis of Christian faith. Knew Mary was very saddened by my response, at the same time, i do not want to hide any true feeling from her. I really don't feel the love of God towards me anymore. Instead of feeling grateful to her for showing me the way to God, i felt pressured to be conformed to the Christian faith because i want to get accepted by my contemporary. I had this judgement towards BH who is so keen to get her mum to accept Jesus Christ as her personal God and saviour. Is it for her mother's good or for her image in front of her peers, that her mother accepted Christ, she had done her part as a daughter? By getting her mum to accept Christ, is she showing more filial piety than not getting her mum to accept Christ?   Christian faith had br...

 Entered into the 2nd week of school. Tutees are all settling down. Am busy with a series of medical appointments. Never expect my ear infection to cost me a non-working day. Finally understand the seriousness of ear infection. Glad things were not as bad as i thought. Will be more careful in future swim.  Mum is getting more and more withdrawn and do not want to participate in a lot of activities, only want to copy buddhist scripts. Just wondering how i am going to engage mum further.  Getting abit worried. Recording mum's progress and updating mei so that i don't forget.  Latest update about mum : She uses her finger to dig into her rectum to force out her stools. And i am monitoring her hygiene now. Not good. She doesn't wash the cloth that was used to wipe her bum.  Master bedroom smells all the time due to the cloth. So i did the regular washing.  Signed myself up for 4 days baking workshop. The cakes baked can be used to treat the colleagues and staff...